What to be when I grow up...

It's a common enough question that we all ask ourselves at some point in life. I'm 38-years-old and started originally at one college at age 35. That was a Computer Forensics degree. Life happened, which left me seeking a different college to attend. I went into Digital Media, but decided it's not for me. I want to create for myself, not for a designed plan another has set forth. I shifted my degree again to Computer Info systems with a focus on web development. The idea is, I can branch this wherever I want it to go and work for different companies. This is to keep food on the table. I do love solving problems, but these fields are not my passion.

I finally have really thought through what I want to be when I grow up. I have to have a job for food. Having a place to live is nice. Clothing is kind of essential. Extras would be cool, and art supplies are top of the line of necessity. :)

I sculpt at a small scale because A.) I can, and B.) it's what I can afford.

What I want to do is just be what I am, an artist. I mainly enjoy sculpting and that's where my ideas and passion are. The other stuff is just fun and relaxing to try or do. I love clay. Primarily, this covers polymer clay although I'm starting to try other kinds. I love paper mache and am just starting to learn that. I have a fondness for fabric and beads, feathers and different types of hair. I love art dolls, busts and fanciful creations. I have ideas for larger creations, yet not the means to create them yet. I'm thinking of trying some paper mache because it's more affordable, until I can get the supplies I need.

Today I chose the fabric for my current doll and the feathers. I need to select the beads and other decor. I need to design her wings. Feathers are for the hair.

I live to create. I have to create. It's what brings me peace among all the stresses of the world. School starts again very soon and I have to create. All I want to be is...

an artist.
That's what I already am.
Does this mean I'm grown up?